In my room I have one lightbulb that illuminates the whole room. While it may not be bright, it helps me to see. I can read by it, I can find my lost pen with it, I can dig through my suitcase and find socks with it. I find the light very helpful. Little did I know how much I relied on light until I didn’t have it.
My first night in Manambaro I noticed that the lights flashed a lot. I didn’t think too much about it until I was eating dinner and it seemed more frequent. Somehow my brain told me to go get a flashlight. I was back with my flashlight and sitting at the table for not more than 30 seconds when the lights went out. Darkness. I couldn’t see anything. Pitch black. Like a cave. My heart hit the ground. My stomach flipped. But, my hand knew right where my light was. Click. Light. I saw the table and walls around me. I saw my food. I breathed. I thanked God for the light.
Upon getting into bed, I noticed how dark and quiet it was. No light from anywhere. No whizzing electronic device. Not even light from another house nearby. It was like my eyes were closed but I knew they were not. I faded into sleep.
Awaking in the middle of the night, I noticed something. There was a faint light coming from the bulb in the middle of my ceiling. It was like it was on, but not really. I noticed that the power was back on so I thought that maybe I didn’t turn the light off all the way at the switch. I didn’t give it much thought, and quickly I was back asleep.
The next night when I turned the light out, the lightbulb glowed again. I checked to make sure it was off and it was. This time it brought me peace. I knew that there was electricity. If I needed, I could turn my light on and see. The darkness would be no more. I tossed and turned quite a bit that night but each time I found my eyes going to the ceiling to see if my nightlight was working. It was always on.
I don’t know if this is how the lightbulb is made to work but I like it. It makes me smile. It makes me feel safe. It gives me peace. When so much in my world is new, it is nice to find something that brings a feeling of peace. I hope that this little lightbulb continues to be an important part of my life here in Manambaro.